The amalgam truth.

There are just too many versions of so-called truth & of the so-called lie.The human capacity to lie looking directly into the eye making others believe its nothing else but truth astonishes me.One may say lie for the selfish sake and one may lie to keep up someone's heart.
Strange enough, No one has lied to me enough to level how much I have lied to myself so far.I always lie to myself everything will be okay when I know only a miracle will help. I always tell myself "I care the least" when i know deep inside nobody cares more than I do.The lies are just too many to ennumerate.Some are awkward,some are promising.
When people know they themselves are their most devoted,most ardent betrayer, why do they expect others to be truthful to them?
Truth itself is the biggest lie.